Category: Diary

November 11, 2025, Tuesday.
Pearl, Mississippi.

I brought chicken here from South Carolina. $2000. Seven hundred dollars is mine. And tomorrow I'll pick up a load from here and go to Utah. That's $3000 too. A thousand dollars of that is mine too. My debt, which was 45 thousand dollars, has dropped below 29 thousand dollars right now. I need to keep paying 1500-2000 every week. The faster we close these debts, the sooner we get rid of working and maybe rest a bit. I can't wait to go to Tijuana and get massage services from the hands of 18-year-old girls.

I am 37 years old. Marilyn Monroe, Princess Diana, and Bob Marley passed away at 36.

A 37-year-life like mine, or a 36-year-life like Marilyn's, Diana's, or Bob's?

November 2, 2025, Sunday.
Rock Springs, Wyoming.

I am taking 20 tons of peas from Chehalis, Washington to Dallas. The length of the trip is 2142 miles. The price is $6250. As the driver, 30% is mine: $1875. Picked it up Friday, will drop it off Monday. So, a 3-day drive. $625 daily. May God bless it.

Around $3000 will be deposited into my account on Friday again. I will immediately send $300 to my dad, $100 to my sibling. I'll buy $250 worth of Bitcoin. There is a poor girl I'm giving a scholarship to, I'll send her $100. I'll set aside $400 for myself. I will bury the rest into the credit cards, hopefully. I had about 31 thousand dollars of debt left last time.

This scholarship conversation wasn't actually a scholarship, but fate spun its web. We had actually been flirting in messages for years. But of course, the girl is the age of my daughter. I was basically providing financial help in exchange for those messages, that conversation, that relationship.

October 29, 2025, Wednesday.
Riverside, California.

Let me write while I have the time. Sometimes you go a long time without being able to spare 5 minutes for a pen and notebook.

The worst part about being a rookie (on the forum/dictionary) is that the save button doesn't work. Saving drafts to the side is one of the most important features of the dictionary. That way, you can read what you wrote and correct spelling mistakes, for example.

Well, you can't do this when you're a rookie. Otherwise, I could have stayed a rookie for life. No big deal.

My goal is to empty my mind and relax. I could have a hundred thousand goals, but this is one of the most important ones.

October 28, 2025, Wednesday.
Barstow, California.

I had written a piece mixed with sadness and acceptance under the influence of the adult film I watched last time, but of course, when I talked about the adult film in detail, they deleted my account, they blew me away.

I'm learning my lesson. You see, I say "adult film" now. How civilized of me. How polite of me.

They are right, of course. Kids read these places too.

I continue trying to drive the truck, pick up loads, drop off loads, earn money, distribute money, and close my debts.

Most recently on Friday, they loaded 10 tons of pizza from Chicago, I'll drop it off at the Walmart warehouse in Riverside, California in a few hours.

May 30, 2025, Friday. Concordia, Missouri. I was in Alabama this morning. I woke up at 6:20. I ate a few biscuits and drank peach iced tea. At 7:20, I arrived in Iuka. There were only 2 pallets of load, and they unloaded the...

May 28, 2025, Wednesday. Cherokee, Alabama. Oh, look at that son of a bitch. He's cutting in front of me. We're waiting in line at the gas station, a bunch of trucks lined up behind each other, and this smartass comes an...

May 25, 2025, Sunday. Oklahoma City, Oklahoma. I'm heading from Arizona to New Jersey. And tonight, I'm passing through Oklahoma. They'll pay me two thousand dollars for this trip. Is it worth going from Arizona to N...

May 21, 2025, Wednesday. San Antonio, Texas. Things are great. Everything's going well. Work continues. Old flames are pregnant. I almost got scammed. Sagopa music forever. I learned that when we lend money, we d...

May 11, 2025, Sunday. Temecula, California. I arrived on Tuesday. I was really tired. So first, I drove to Elm Street in Murrieta. There's a truck driver friend who lives there. He told me about it. You can park your truck on thi...

May 5, 2025, Monday. Yuma, Arizona. Porn ruined me. Sometimes I think like that. Sometimes I turn into a huge porn enemy. After a wank, of course. I've been unhappy since yesterday when I learned that the world's mo...