Category: Diary

April 24, 2026, Friday.
Grandview, Washington.

It's always others who are guilty. It's always others who are bad. It's always others who are talking nonsense. It's always others who are ridiculous. We always laugh at others.... (Read More)

April 19, 2026, Sunday.
Ontario, California.

Life is a great absurdity. Great and funny. A comedy of absurdities. It is this comedy aspect that makes life meaningful. It is understandable that people don't want to leave life. Who would... (Read More)

April 5, 2026, Sunday.
South Beloit, Illinois.

This place is on the Wisconsin border. I’m here quite often these days because there’s a Flying J truck stop here. Because this is ... (Read More)

March 30, 2026, Monday.
Cranbury, New Jersey.

Started the week with a $524 loss today. In the morning, the truck's front tire got sliced while trying to go over the railroad tracks. Then we called the tire guy, he came, sorted it out, we... (Read More)

Yesterday, a few minor mishaps happened one after another. First, the police pulled me over in the morning. Because I was messing with the map on my phone, the trailer swayed left and right a bit. So he pulled me over thinking, "Let me stop him and see if the driver is falling asleep or what he's doing driving so carelessly." That's what he told me.

When he flashed his lights, I started pulling over to the right. There's actually a huge rest area just a little further ahead, so I thought I'd drive right in there. You know, it's safer for the cop... (Read More)

Colors and melody, drops while drowning, rain, getting wet and getting angry, running and wet sleep.

Purple ghosts. Purple and shapeless. Shapeless but fat. Fat but hungry. Billions of sperm tested by hunger. Billions of wasted sperm. Ugly creatures. Ugly but conceited. In love with themselves.... (Read More)

As a fatty, I've been on a diet for 4 days. What kind of diet, I don't know either. I just made a decision all of a sudden. Of course.

Five days ago, I couldn't eat anyway because of work and stuff. I realized it that evening while going to get some food. Actually, I didn't feel like eating. Just because I hadn't eaten all day, I was walking towards getting food as if I had to eat. I decided at that moment. I said I don't have to eat. I ate that evening, but starting from the next day, I said I would spend the day... (Read More)

There's no time, man. Not much time. I mean, there is, but I don't feel like dedicating it here. Instead, I watch Beşiktaş games. The game ends, I watch commentary and analysis programs about Beşiktaş. These make me happy. How nice, something far away from religion and politics at least. I love Sergen a lot too. The team has become solid as a rock anyway. It's all good and nice like this. Agbadou, Murillo, Ndidi, Orkun, Olaitan, Cerny, oh. Life is too short. Not worth taking seriously or getting upset over. If you're going to get upset, get upset when... (Read More)

Dear diary,

I watched this guy today.

If you have some free time, give him a chance too.... (Read More)

February 14, 2026, Saturday.
Liverpool, New York.

As I get older, I've even become ashamed of writing. I realize more and more every passing day what an empty person I am. All writings are garbage, all thoughts are absurd.... (Read More)