Author: miswi

February 14, 2026, Saturday.
Liverpool, New York.

As I get older, I've even become ashamed of writing. I realize more and more every passing day what an empty person I am. All writings are garbage, all thoughts are absurd.... (Read More)

February 4, 2026, Wednesday.
Grand Ledge, Michigan.

Pure white cold, pitch black mud. Snow a few meters high. People freezing, dressed as if it were summer. A generous nature, a magnificent world, living to the fullest, crying inwardly but... (Read More)

January 26, 2026, Monday.
Rock Hill, South Carolina.

Living isn't actually that hard. If they expect your smile, you will smile. When they want you to bow your head, you will bow your head. There is no such thing as "I do what I want, when... (Read More)

January 15, 2026, Thursday.
Weatherford, Oklahoma.

My dear wife says she has made various suicide attempts throughout the past week. Thank goodness none of them worked. And since she's telling me this, I suppose she means to say "save me".

So I immediately reached out to her mother. I feel sorry for the poor woman too. We also talked with her older sister about what we can do.

I say my wife, but it's a long story.

If you go to a foreign country, find a local woman and make her believe you love her just to get residency there, and one day when you're done, you leave without looking back, it means you're a despicable, dishonorable son of a bitch, right?

January 5, 2026, Monday.
Somerset, Pennsylvania.

A new year has begun. The search for excitement starts immediately whenever a new year kicks off. Will something new happen? People get so bored if nothing new occurs.

And something brand new did happen. Our President Donald Trump went to Venezuela, put their president in a sack, and brought him back to America. I mean, what more could you want? There's your excitement.

Could such a thing have been predicted? Hardly. And it didn't even end there. Greenland is next. There are events in Iran. Things are being said about Cuba.

Adrenaline is at its peak. It's impossible for us to be bored. We’re watching it like a match. May the best one win.

December 28, 2025, Sunday.
Kimball, Nebraska.

The mornings of the cold season are hungover. If you look at its face, it gives you the feeling that it's going to throw up. It doesn't refrain from throwing up anyway: one day rain, one day snow; every day mud, every land.

I woke up in Northern Indiana on Saturday morning and drove to Illinois. As soon as I crossed the border, I bought potato börek and ayran from a Bosnian food place. Topped off with a slice of chocolate cake, along with a glass of tea.

When I arrived at the parking lot of the company I work for, they changed my truck. I left the swaying Volvo there, grabbed my stuff into a beast of a Kenworth there, and continued on my way with this vehicle.

December 19, 2025, Friday.
Coldwater, Michigan.

2 days left until winter comes. Days are not days on the north side. The morning passed in snowfall. I freeze every time I get out of the truck.

Now they will load 20 tons of sausages from here tonight and I will take these sausages to the Mexican border, to California, driving for a few days.

December 9, 2025, Tuesday.
Wapato, Washington.

We are laughing with the young members of the public who have long digested their oppression while sipping our beverages.

The cost of parking here is 10 dollars. However, if you shop for 25 dollars from the market, then you don't have to pay a price for parking until morning.

I bought a sandwich, a croissant, peanuts, tea, but I just couldn't round it up to 25 dollars. A different kind of beverage caught my eye. I asked the kid at the register about it. He said it was a good thing, "I drank it, I like it," he said. I bought one for him, and one for myself.

November 30, 2025, Sunday.
Haw River, North Carolina.

Life is short and we don't make love enough. If only my debts would end, so I could meet up with escorts again. I really miss chubby women.

My father's death didn't shake me. A different energy came to me after that day. I felt that I needed to be stronger. I must laugh more. I must have more fun. I must exist more. Because I am next in line. And my time will be over in the blink of an eye.

Death is actually a magnificent thing. The peace we lost and search for is there. However, life is a fun game too. We started and we don't want it to end.

And the fact that it will end one day is guaranteed. From that perspective, we are relaxed too. There is no problem with us acting spoiled and falsely wishing for it not to end. It will end anyway. Whether we want it or not, eternal peace will take us away.

November 23, 2025, Sunday.

My father passed away this morning.

My mother has Alzheimer's. My father felt an oddness in her condition today. He called emergency for my mom. But we think he experienced great sorrow at that moment thinking something would happen to my mom, and his already sick heart couldn't handle this sorrow.

Because they found my father hugging my mom but with his heart stopped when they arrived home.

His conscience wasn't clear. He was also blaming himself for the condition my mom fell into.

He wasn't wrong. We were all to blame regarding my mom's condition. We all upset her a lot. But of course, maybe my father upset her the most. After all, he was the closest to her, our father. He was her husband.