August 30, 2024, Friday.
Clearfield, Utah.

I will get a good amount of money today. Because I worked well last week. Dispatch worked well too. We found good loads. We earned good money.

Today I’ll send $500 to my dad, $400 to my mother-in-law. I’ll send $400 to one of the girls in Tijuana too. I’ll probably send $100 to the girl in Ankara. I’ll set aside $1000 from the remaining money, and pay the rest to the credit card. Actually, I want to send $1500 to another Mexican girl. It’s her birthday, and she also has a song she recorded, so she can shoot a video for it, even if it’s cheap and amateurish, and publish it.

I want to work day and night, make a lot of money, not give anyone a dime, and slowly close my 40 thousand dollar credit card debt now, but I can’t manage it. Because there are a few girls I can’t say “no” to. They don’t ask for money every day either, but even if they ask once a month anyway, I end up having to send it to one of them every week.

Maybe it’s not important. Because I am trying to bring a young friend who makes good money in Istanbul to America. He wants to come, and I’m doing my best to help. For instance, 4 days from now on Tuesday, just for this friend, I will give up making money and stay in Oregon for a day or two. The cost of a day or two to me could be $1000, maybe even more. My female friend whom I agreed for him to marry lives in Oregon. I will go to her. I will take her by the hand and take her to get a passport. Because we said do it, do it, and she just didn’t do it. We have to take her by the hand and take her, what can you do.

If things go well, I will be in Istanbul for a week in October. I’ll bring the girl there, to introduce her to my friend. While I’m there, there’s a girl around there I’ve been sending money to for years, maybe I’ll finally make love to her too.

There are two people who owe me money right now. They also said they will pay their debts. The one with a $7000 debt is supposedly sending the first installment next week. We’ll see. I hope he pays it in 7 installments over 7 weeks. I’m not sure about the amount of the other friend’s debt. But he has at least $5000 too. He is supposedly going to try to finish it before 2025. Good then, my credit card debt will decrease a lot.

And in March, the car payment finishes. And I want to go to Tijuana more often. I’ll find a way in the future. It’s hard right now. However, if I can bring the young businessman friend in Istanbul here, I dream that we’ll earn beautifully together here. And if I earn beautiful money, all my wishes will come true. When I say all my wishes, it’s just sending money to a few girls to make them happy, and in return for them to make me happy too. Hope is the poor man’s bread.