Category: Diary

I was bored in the room. I was crying softly but very calmly, very quietly. I wiped my eyes from time to time. I went out of the hotel. I continued to cry on the way. There was a restlessness inside me. Failure. I couldn't be a...

Tuesday, October 15, 2024. Tijuana, Mexico. We had dinner with Kelly. It was a beautiful restaurant. The food was wonderful. Kelly's smile lit up the place like the sun. But that's the end of tonight. She went home. I'm alo...

September 28, 2024, Saturday. Ontario, California. I came to drop off the load in Compton, I even came on Thursday, so I arrived early... However, this warehouse doesn't have a refrigerated section. And I brought meat in ...

September 25, 2024, Wednesday. Amarillo, Texas. 7:45 PM. Man, all these years what crap I've been talking. Like, "I'll find an American, I'll marry them off to Turks, what's the big deal?" I was creating dreams for myself, d...

September 25, 2024, Wednesday. Madill, Oklahoma. Billions of different lives, billions of different stories. I am the story of a 36-year-old lonely man. I am in favor of unattractive men not being born or not living. I get sad...

My old partner is buying the truck from me. He will pay me $7000. He sent $2000 the other day, thank God. I called my sister. She was upset. The people who should be showing interest weren't. I sent $150 to my sister...

Thursday, August 22, 2024. Medford, Oregon. They loaded cheese from Wisconsin on Monday and told me to get it to Medford, Oregon by Thursday or Friday morning. After picking up the load, I went to the tire shop. But...

If she calls and says things are going well here, I'll quit and go there. She'll drive the truck during the day, and I'll drive it at night. Or if she gets her passport, and he gets our tickets, we'll come to Istanbul and I'll learn the...

August 18, 2024, Sunday. Cheyenne, Wyoming. https://youtu.be/vgr9ylj_ht4?si=sruynkexqyoag0ua My blue one, I turned blue, I locked myself to your door. My heart was rusted, but with you, I was renewed. My darling, m...

The most beautiful thing I saw today. I felt both jealous and happy. I wish all mothers were like this. I wish all sons were like this. Mom is on OnlyFans. Her son is behind the camera. That's what I call family. Respect, love...