May 17, 2026, Sunday.
Ontario, California.

Look at this situation. I mean, actually, there is nothing to be told with great pride on my behalf. In fact, it’s quite embarrassing. But it’s also quite interesting I guess, I don’t know.

Now scenes from the TV series ‘Gibi’ are popping up on my feed, YouTube Shorts. I took a look, a very beautiful girl. So Yılmaz is getting jealous of his girlfriend over İlkkan. But I really liked the girl. I Googled and searched around and found her. Buket Gülbeyaz.

Then I saw a thread titled “We are sending Buket to America” opened years ago, but I hadn’t even looked at that thread back then. Because I clicked it for the first time now and saw that her biography says she studied at Bornova Anatolian High School between 2005 and 2009.

I said, no way, it can’t be her. Around those dates, I also had a high school girlfriend, from the same high school. I had just started university anyway; since she was a girl from the lower grade of one of my classmates, we bumped into each other while sitting at a cafe on Kafeler Sokağı and were introduced, and then we had a beautiful relationship.

Not with Buket, by the way, let there be no misunderstanding. That’s the part I feel ashamed of anyway. One day, while I was with another girl, they had gathered at a house. And in that house, there was a sweet girl whose name I didn’t know back then. So this is the part I’m ashamed of: I had a girlfriend, but in that environment, I really liked that girl too; of course, I immediately turned my head and didn’t look in that direction again so I wouldn’t get into trouble.

If I’m not mistaken, it turns out that girl was Buket Gülbeyaz. I didn’t know her name back then. I was with another girl from the same class.

So here’s what’s interesting, I mean what’s interesting to me: there was a girl I saw once, just for a moment, 15-20 years ago; she was very beautiful, I had really liked her. 15-20 years pass, a scene pops up in front of me, a two-second clip, and I say, ‘Man, the girl is very beautiful, let me search and find her.’ Moreover, searching and finding her wasn’t easy either. If you type ‘Gibi TV series Gülşen character’ on Google, you can’t find much. Still, I was stubborn and found her.

The lady has reached the age of 35. I’m going to be 40 anyway, too. But what kind of taste is this that hasn’t changed at all. 15-20 years ago, the exact same eyebrows, same eyes, same nose, same lips, same hair, same cheeks impressed me; 15-20 years have passed, and I am still impressed by the exact same eyebrows, same eyes, same nose, same lips.

This is what I’m mainly surprised about here. Doesn’t a person change at all? Doesn’t taste evolve? I’m surprised. I got a nice feeling inside. But of course, we’ve gotten old. It’s not like I’m going to hit on Ms. Buket either. Besides, she wouldn’t give the time of day to a 40-year-old fat guy, and she shouldn’t anyway. Also, the story I told about years ago is truly embarrassing. It’s a shame towards my girlfriend at the time too. And I used to really like her and love her a lot too. But she is already married to someone else now anyway. Anyway, I mean. Very interesting. At least for me.