June 14, 2025, Saturday.
Lodi, California.

Since my path fell to California, I thought I’d not work for a few days, wait for Monday and drop by the family court in Sacramento. My dear wife, bless her, applied to the court two and a half years ago, in September 2022, for our divorce. But, you see, because she also mentioned our cars while filling out the forms, the court didn’t grant the divorce right away. They said, first let your husband declare that he won’t claim any rights over your car. That’s the info that came to me. And since I am constantly on the road, I could never come and take care of it. I mean, there should be a solution like writing on a piece of paper, signing it and sending it from afar, but I don’t know, my dear wife was saying we will go to a notary or something back then, so it just kept getting delayed and remained undone. Now she hasn’t been talking to me at all for a long time. So the task fell to me. Since I am here, let me go and see if I can handle it. I hope it gets handled.

If it gets handled, I am dreaming of marrying a lady who drank halal milk (a decent lady) and stepping into the porn world as husband and wife, God willing. It could be OnlyFans, it could be the mainstream porn industry, whichever it is. It’s been my dream since childhood. Pray that I can realize it before I die.

Of course, while we are dreaming of divorce, marriage, stepping into the porn world and so on here, does the world stop? It immediately added war to wars, didn’t it? It turned out beautiful though. Well, this was going to happen eventually, let it happen already, man. Let it happen and let’s see what the result is. Although, maybe it won’t be concluded. It will be left in suspense, it will continue in large and small ways for years. Because sometimes it happens like that. Clarifying it doesn’t serve the interests of the parties. Sustaining it can be more profitable.

I like Israel. I admire anyone who is powerful. I envy them. Everyone criticizes. Crying and complaining is very easy. But what is the need for these? I’ll live for another 37 years or I won’t. What will I gain if I spend these 37 years struggling with Israel? Will I defeat Israel? No. Instead of that, if I have the respect for Israel that it deserves for its successes, and if I investigate how they achieved it, try to take them as an example and try to be like them, I suppose this would be a more useful thing. Well, these Jews have been disliked since the beginning of time anyway. Yet why this hatred? There are only 16 million Jews in the world in total. If it’s about being a minority, they are a minority; if it’s about being oppressed, they are oppressed. Throughout history, there is nothing that hasn’t happened to them. Despite that, they got stronger again and brought themselves to a level to rule the world. I swear I respect this. I admire it. Bravo! If we are going to respect and love the religion fairy tale, these guys are the pioneers in that too. The religions that came after Judaism are also like different versions of Judaism. More or less the same things, more or less the same fairy tales. More or less the same arrogance, more or less the same hatred. Infinite power, infinite mercy, infinite wrath, infinite revenge. Infinite promise.

And also, brother, bless them, they have built a beautiful world. We work, we earn, we eat, we drink, we make love. We hang out as we please. Now, after benefiting from this system so much, I don’t find it right for myself to insult those who built this system. That is hypocrisy. For example, what if Iran ruled the world? God forbid! A disgusting situation. Actually, I like Iran. I like its history, its poetry, its literature, its food, its cuisine, its dark-eyebrowed, dark-eyed, big-boobed, big-assed women and girls; there’s no problem there. But unfortunately, they fucked up Iran too 46 years ago, you know. Let these son of a bitch mullahs who rule with religion go, and let whatever comes in their place come, just don’t let religion come, man. Let women gain their freedom. Let them uncover their hair. Let them exhibit their boobs. Wouldn’t that be okay?

A bunch of innocent kids and children will die, of course. Who knows, tomorrow someone might fire a missile here and we might die too. We are not that important as humans anyway. We are a number. We can die out of nowhere. Just like little bugs. Being alive, the animal kingdom is like this. Life is such a thing. Israeli kids will die too, Iranian kids too, American kids too. There is no cure for this. A world without war is impossible. War will always exist. The fight for power is from eternity to eternity. The actual god is the fight for power anyway. That is what comes from infinity, and that is what will last until infinity. Thank God we are on the same side as the powerful ones. The day comes, we get weak, and they will tear us to pieces too. No one looks at anyone’s tears. The moment I fall into need, the enemy crushes me mercilessly. This is normal. But today I am not the one in need. And if my enemy is in need, of course I won’t have mercy either. This is what’s normal, in this nature. I’ve always seen it like this in documentaries and stuff. Both animals live like this, and human history has always continued this way. Well, it’s natural, I mean, humans are animals too after all. Long story short, the world is always in a state of war.

That is why I fled to the side of the most powerful one. Because I was born in an era when the USA is powerful, I took refuge in the USA. I am pleased with my life. Of course, like every life, my life is shitty too. But the point is to be able to reduce the level of this shittiness a bit. I love the USA, its blue, red, white flag, its founders of European descent. They don’t like my Middle Eastern face, but I find them right in this matter too. I would also change my path if someone who looks like my enemy appeared before me. Therefore, I will probably continue to lick Western ass until the end of my life. Because if I want to make love with a blonde-haired, blue-eyed, big-boobed girl, this is most possible if I am a Western ass-kisser or a Western lover. If you become an Eastern ass-kisser or an Eastern lover, sex is forbidden, sex is a sin. Boobs only when you die, and small boobs at that, the size of buds, why, well hooray for pedophilia. My goodness, what if I want big boobs? No, impossible, it has to be buds. Well then, no offense, man. Your strategy is wrong. If you had given freedom to women, if you had let us make love from young ages, would I have come all the way here? I would have defended you to the death right then. It wasn’t meant to be. Long live the powers that rule the world. Long live the immorality of the West. Down with despotism! Amen!