Tuesday, April 8, 2025.
Oakland, Oregon.

Life is beautiful. Life is incredibly beautiful. With everything. The good and the bad.

During the day I listen to Ceza on the road to find energy. In the evenings, when the sadness sets in, I listen to Sagopa Kajmer this time. Not every day, but from time to time I have such periods. I think I am going through those periods these days.

Being a truck driver is a good thing, the roads are good. Every day a new city, every morning a different sun, every Friday a different weather. The seasons are changing rapidly. As I never stop, as I drive and go; time never stops, it also flows.

Being a truck driver has some very bad sides. But I don’t care. I’m used to it now. What’s the point of upsetting yourself for nothing? You have to love your job. Love it so you don’t end your 3-day life with sorrow.

Now I’m focused on my debts. I can obsess about things to a sickening degree if I want to. From now on, I will use every penny I have left from my father and mother to pay off my credit card debts. Oh, and of course I have to spend money on food. I don’t have any other expenses. No more girls. I’ve already forgotten about escorts.

First I’ll pay off my debts. Then I’ll save up and start traveling. Yes. These are my goals. I have short-term goals. Long-term goals are not for me. I don’t want to live that long anyway.

Life is good, but death is good too. And death is part of life, Forrest.

I don’t care if the economy turns upside down. I’ll feed myself somehow. I don’t have money to worry about. I’m used to living without money. If the economy wants to worry those who have money, it’s unlikely to succeed with me.

I find everything that is happening marvelous, nothing could be more beautiful. It shouldn’t have been. It didn’t have to be. Everything that happens is a gift. What is essential is nothingness. We came from him and we will return to him. Let’s enjoy this life for 3-5 days until we return. Even if we work like donkeys, nothing prevents us from listening to Ceza or Sagopa. There’s nothing stopping us from eating potatoes and bread. We can drink a lot of water. Green forests are free to see with the naked eye. Lakes, rivers, waterfalls are free. From California to Washington, from Washington to Pennsylvania, I get great views and I get paid for it. I’m the best. I am very lucky. I love life very much.

Edit: The last time I entered an entry was “troubled times”. Then today “life is beautiful”. Hehe. What changed? This has changed. I used to lease. I was kind of trading. I was taking risks. One week it was great, I was spending too much. The next week it was bad, I was rolling in debt.

Now I’m a company driver. I’m a salaried employee. I’m not taking any risks. I’m not going to have a huge amount of money any week, but I’m not going to go into debt any week. I’m going to have something in my pocket every week. That’s what I like.

So you shouldn’t envy the rich. They are rich because they take risks. Taking risks is very stressful. It’s so stressful that I don’t even envy those rich people. They deserve all that money. Risk is such a stressful thing.

On the other hand, the employee/worker cannot get rich. They shouldn’t. You don’t risk going bankrupt. You have your hands full. You can always find another job. That risk of bankruptcy is such a great stress that one should prefer to be a worker and not get rich. I hope I made myself clear. If not, who cares? Life is empty, pump and pump. Have a good shave. 🙂