Friday, December 20, 2024.
Aurora, Colorado.

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An Islamophobe like me killed a lot of Germans today.

It is indeed a good day for someone like me to die or be killed.

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I am definitely one of the losers now. A big loser. One of those who play big and lose big. (I say this because I have $45,000 in credit card debt. There are people who owe a thousand times more than me, but that doesn’t mean that the amount of my debt is insignificant.)

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My biggest characteristic is that I am a stupid pervert.

But the problem is that I believe that all men are idiots and perverts, so it seems to me that this is the normal thing. If there is a man who is not like that, there is something abnormal about him. Maybe he’s gay. Or he is crazy. Or he has some other problem we don’t know about. But he’s not necessarily normal. A normal man is an idiot. A normal man is a pervert.

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Why would an Islamophobe do this? If I were to do this, I would do it so that bad things happen to people who look like me. I don’t like Muslims so much that I would do it in the hope that if I commit terrorism, they will expel or punish all Middle Eastern Muslims who look like me because of me. Because whether I am Islamophobic or not doesn’t make much difference. In their eyes we are all Middle Easterners, we are all the same.

I wonder if that’s why today’s terrorist committed this terror?