Sunday, April 27, 2025.
Ogden, Utah.

Virginia Giuffre committed suicide?

The death of every beautiful woman is a thousand times sadder than any other death.

A lady of this order, victimized from childhood.

I’m not sensitive. I don’t give a fuck. I just get upset when something bad happens to a beautiful woman with blonde hair and blue eyes.

I exaggerate, of course. Otherwise, I’ll soon forget it, it’ll pass. I’ve already forgotten.

The life of a truck driver is another life. A parallel life. Because there’s no time for anything. You are not there. You want a divorce, you need to go somewhere, you need to sign something; you can’t find the time, you can’t plan it.

As a matter of fact, it has been 3 years since my wife applied for divorce. However, the case has been pending for 3 years because I had to sign something.

For example, I need to go to the dentist for a year. I go, X-rays are taken, an appointment is made; I can’t be there on that date. This has repeated 3-4 times, like this. I finally gave up, but he reminds me of him every now and then with a toothache.

The gun has been waiting for me in the shop for 3 years.

I’m bored. Or I get bored from time to time. Even though I try to motivate myself, it happens from time to time. I’m bored, sick and tired of sending money to my parents.

I’m 37 years old. How many more years do I have to take care of them? When will they die? Today and tomorrow I’ll be 40. I’m almost dead. And when will they die? No way, Lord God! You have to set a standard. Say that every person has to die at 65, I don’t know.

I want to go to Germany and visit Killa Hakan. He’s a humble guy. His door is open to everyone. Well, now that we’ve found an open door, let’s go in and have a chat. Let’s ask him how he’s doing.

Salvo the Weasel must be destroyed. God damn him. That reminds me.

A friend of mine went to Colombia and stayed for 9 days. He says they pay 20-30 dollars there. I spent a fortune in Mexico then. I definitely need to go to Colombia sometime. If only the Russia-Ukraine war would end, we could go there too. There is no need to go anywhere else.

I didn’t like Thailand much, to be honest.

But you should go to the Dominican Republic.

Cartagena. That’s the name of the place he went to in Colombia. He says it’s like Bodrum or something.

I can’t fucking pay on credit cards. I can’t. I paid a little bit, and then we owe money on the old house.

There are deductions from my salary because of the accident I had in January.

I don’t work as much as I used to. I work less. And now my driver’s license expires next week, it’s a week off. That means 0 dollars for a week.

I can’t fucking make it. It’s ridiculous. If I can’t make it, how does everyone else make it? That’s the question of the century.

At least the car payment’s done. I’ve been paying for 6 or 7 years. Last month. Ohh.