Saturday, January 25, 2025.
La Salle, Illinois.

It’s the middle of the night, I’m driving a truck in Illinois, destination New Jersey, I-80 East. I’m hauling wine, Washington to New Jersey.

We put up with it for the money. No social life. Tijuana is in my nostrils. Look at these beauties: [invalid URL removed]

I miss 18-year-olds getting blow jobs for 120 bucks, man. But I’m gonna get my shit together. I gotta get a job in San Diego. Work in the morning, Tijuana and sex at night. That’s a dream.

Kevin, the guy I used to go to gangbang parties with, they put him in jail. Mesut told me.

I’ve found a girl for Abdullah to marry. If Apo comes, he’ll have hope. Managing OnlyFans accounts and fucking ass on pussy is also a dream.

And then there’s Sema. We’ll make her the first Turkish porn star to fuck on Brazzers. That’s also a dream.

You can’t live without hope. You can’t live without dreams. That’s why billions of people have Allah. I don’t have Allah. My whorehouse is my dream. I have hopes in porn. If I respect your religion, I expect you to respect my sex work.

Honestly, I don’t give a fuck what you think. I didn’t want to write this entry because I thought they would delete it, but you told me to write, so here it is.

10/21 – 10/27: 8350 – 3529.83
10/28 – 11/03: 10010 – 4215.76
11/04 – 11/10: 13850 – 5212.94
11/11 – 11/17: 11200 – 3874.21
11/18 – 11/24: 11900 – 4700.10
11/25 – 12/01: 4750 – -1001.88
12/02 – 12/08: 11825 – 3767.19
12/09 – 12/15: 4300 – -651.45
12/16 – 12/22: 13150 – 5949.29
12/23 – 12/29: 5000 – 80.11
12/30 – 01/05: 10643 – 2673.69
01/06 – 01/12: 9697 – 3303.13
01/13 – 01/19: 9100 – 2434.54

I have been in this company for 13 weeks. The money I earned week by week is as above. The big numbers are total turnover, ignore them. But while I earned 4000-5000 in the first weeks, we are in the 2000s in the last weeks. In between, there are two negative weeks.

My credit card debts haven’t improved a penny. I don’t know how to keep money, how to spend it. It’s a shame.

But don’t worry, we’ll fuck this world up. Just wait until Abdullah comes to America. Let’s say he fails, then let me marry Sema.

Sex, sex, sex! Life is so boring without sex. And don’t they look at this shitty life and say, “There must be a creator of this wonderful order”? I’m going crazy. Would everything be so shitty if there was a creator? I mean, if we are like this because there is a god, how would we be without him? Repent, God forgive me. See you later, woof woof woof, Lvbel C5 Styla.